Eighteen Seconds by Louise Beech

Sometimes the only way to understand and come to terms with something is to write your way into it and through it. I feel this is what Louise Beech has done in relation to her memoir Eighteen Seconds, which focuses on the author's relationship with her mother. The book begins after we find out her mother has tried to commit suicide by jumping off the Humber Bridge and has miraculously survived the fall. 

The book moves between present-day accounts of hospital visits and updates and flashbacks to Louise's childhood with her twin sisters and brother living with their mother and in care when things break down at home as a result of their mother's mental instability, alcoholism, depression and suicidal tendencies. Some tender moments are shared between the siblings and, in particular, Louise's reflection on her grandmother, which I found particularly moving and reminded me of my grandmother's love and care for me.

This is raw, honest writing that must have been challenging to put down on paper.  It is punctuated by a savvy and dark sense of humour witnessed in all the family members, something that was undoubtedly used as a coping mechanism.

It's not an easy read, but it is compelling, highlighting the complexities of family dynamics and how those we often have the greatest expectations of can continually disappoint us. 

A courageous write by a brave writer.